Counting My Blessings

September 15, 2009

I had a complete break down today. It’s getting close to my time of the month, I’m hormonal and just feeling like I can’t deal with the pressures of my day. I cried. It felt really good to cry. I threw the schedule out the window today and just took my day easy. When my dear hubby came home he allowed me to take a nap for a couple hours. While I was sleeping he went out and got a pizza for dinner. Today was definitely a good day to not have to cook. It was a good day for pizza. I have such a great supportive family. I’m truly blessed.

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My Daily Points Target = 32
Total points spent = 32
Breakfast:  1/4 cantaloupe and toast with jam = 4 points
Lunch: = 0 points
Dinner: pizza = 28 points (I think)

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Getting Started….again

September 9, 2009

I have nothing great to report. I’ve continued my downward spiral this week. Ugh! I’m so disappointed in myself. The hardest part for me in loosing weight is always the getting started part and I’ve slacked off so much lately I really need to begin again. The one good difference between now and 3 months ago is that I am down 20lbs.! I get to begin with 20lbs. gone already.

OK, OK I can do this. One step at a time. Let’s take it easy, nice and easy steps. Let’s make a goal for tomorrow. I will be on plan tomorrow. No eating out, no junk food. I’ll journal and blog my meals. If I do this I will give myself a shiny gold star!

Discouraged

August 17, 2009

Already I’ve broken my goals for this week. We had a movie night and then the next evening a poker night. There was cookies and chips and pop and pizza…. I had no self control. I’m feeling pretty discouraged today. I am wondering what happened to the resolve I had a few months ago to loose weight. I want to know how I can regain it.

Day 18

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Food Units
lean cusine and 1/4 of a cantaloupe. 7
apple fritter. 10
Total: 17

Table provided by Roni’s Food Tweet, Eat, Post Generator.

What a rotten day. I felt like I wanted to throw something or rip someone’s head off all day long. I made everyone around me miserable. I ended up getting in my car and driving to the beach. I left the house without eating any breakfast of course. (I really need to break that habit.)

The day continued to get worse when I got back home. I finally ended up eating at dinner time and just heated a lean cuisine in the microwave. In the past when I had a day like this I would turn to food to make it all better. I did that today also. I’m sure it’s a bad thing to do but I did have the points for a sugary sweet treat. I indulged and went to the bakery and had an apple fritter. The crazy thing though it made my mood worse. I’m beginning to wonder if the bad food I’ve been having lately has anything to do with my bad mood. I think I need to find other alternatives besides food for when I am having a bad day. Even if i DO have the points.